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Friday, April 03, 2015      2 comments

I wish I could say I'm doing "well," but I'm at least doing "okay." I didn't gain this week. I didn't lose, either, but I did maintain. Even though I'm in a challenge and my goal was 10 lbs in 10 weeks, I'm okay with just maintaining after gaini... Read more
A Dark Day
Wednesday, March 11, 2015      4 comments

A good friend that I went to grad school with committed suicide last night. I...I don't really have much to say... He was one of the happiest, brightest people I'd ever met in my life. The first class we had together, he literally brought us all... Read more
Another week gone
Friday, March 06, 2015      5 comments

I'm having a lot of trouble today. With everything...caring, being patient, controlling my anger...those all sound contradictory but they're all in me at the same time. It's been a really crappy week, for no real reason other than it's winter an... Read more
Rough Week
Friday, February 27, 2015      2 comments

This week has been pretty tough. I've been exhausted every day, and sleeping really poorly every night. We've had to stay late at the shop every day this week, until at least 10, so we haven't exercised since Monday. One night we decided we didn... Read more
Everything changes, Everything stays the same
Wednesday, February 25, 2015      4 comments

It's almost 4 years since my last entry. In that time I started another profile here; I can't remember if I blogged on it. Either way, I decided that this time when I came back, I'd go back to my original, because I need to be aware of where I *... Read more
A(nother) new start
Monday, March 21, 2011      5 comments

So, here I am again, 5 months later. A lot has changed, and I really think I might be a different person now. I want things, and I know how to get a lot of them. And I want to work for them. It's really weird for me, but I feel a lot more at pea... Read more
Here it is
Friday, October 01, 2010      5 comments

Right about now, I feel like the only positive thing I can say is that I'm alive. Things are so F-ed right now...I feel like I can hardly even function day-to-day. I allowed myself to do a lot of awful things in the last month. Since I love list... Read more
Recovery Journal: Day 6
Monday, August 30, 2010      3 comments

I can't decide how I really feel about this situation. I know that it's doing me good, but it still sucks. Classes start today, and I want to revert to sweet sugary goodness, but I won't. I might have to grab a snack before chem (at noon) becaus... Read more
Recovery Journal: Day 3
Friday, August 27, 2010      5 comments

It feels really messed up to refer to myself as an "addict in recovery." I know so many addicts that it feels like I'd be belittling them, or trying to make my problem seem worse than it is. The thing that's wrong with that, though, is that I've... Read more
The Academic Approach
Monday, August 23, 2010      6 comments

It's been over a month, I know. What an insane month it's been. Following my mother's surgery, I lived with my parents again for about three weeks (mostly) drama-free. During the fourth week, I started having some serious pain. Long story short,... Read more
This may top the last one...
Wednesday, July 21, 2010      6 comments

I moved back into my parents' house on Sunday. The situation with Cat and Dog got to a point that I couldn't handle. I realized it when a friend of mine noted that I got a C in an entry level course, which is completely not me. Then I got C's on... Read more
Long(est) Weekend
Monday, July 05, 2010      5 comments

So, Friday came and went, as it was spent in the ER. My mother went in with severe stomach pains, which ended up being her galbladder. Don't worry, she's fine. She had it out yesterday, and she got to go home today. The whole weekend was exhaust... Read more
Day 6
Friday, July 02, 2010      3 comments

I'm not usually up already. In fact, my alarm won't go off for another hour. I don't know what's up. I've actually been waking up since 5, but I forced myself to go back to sleep, because I went to bed at 2. Bethany thinks I don't sleep enough, ... Read more
Day 5
Thursday, July 01, 2010      6 comments

Today's been good, save the headache I have from not having any caffeine this morning. Lab was OK, but I was dragging like crazy. I'm still really tired, in fact. Still, I met most of my goals today. I might go to bed early tonight. A good... Read more
Day 4
Wednesday, June 30, 2010      5 comments

Not the best day, but still not bad. I slept all day, because I wasn't feeling well. I didn't have class, so I guess it wasn't a big deal. I feel really lazy, though. I did two sinkfuls of dishes, because I wanted to make up for not doing them y... Read more

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