Isolation And Humans
Tuesday, September 15, 2020
I am one of those weird humans who actually enjoys alone-time. I am, at heart, pretty danged antisocial....
At first, the quarantine was odd, because my morning walks made it feel like I was walking through the apocalypse in some areas (spoooooky!) At the same time, I do enjoy having the time to work on my yard, or to bake, or to sit and read a book. So in many ways, after the adjustment, this part was not that difficult for me. I was pretty dadgum ok being at home with my also introverted teenager. I didn't have to "people". I didn't have to pretend to be a social human. I could just enjoy it.
As time has gone on, and we have the option to be back in the office (without feeling like a criminal for being up here), there are days I truly miss that quiet time. Many people in my office are not back full time, due to their own health issues. I am here, at times because of a sense of obligation to our students, at other times, because I actually truly do enjoy my job.
Lately I find, I kind of almost miss socializing (who said that?!). I still am not particularly fond of huge bunches of people, and have sooo little desire to do that. (WHY AREN'T YOU WEARING A MASK RIGHT?!)
We lost my dad to the stupid virus in July. He had underlying health conditions, yes, but exposure to the virus could have been avoided if his health care providers had practiced proper protocol. And I miss him. It's been hard on Mom.
But see, one of the positive things out of this quarantine is, I talk to my Mom... Every Single Day. I feel weird on the random days we play phone tag and miss each other. It has made me so appreciative of our relationship!! And I take care of my own health expressly to be able to see my Mom (as well as help take care of my friend who is disabled). It's a precious responsibility. So maybe the lesson was, appreciation of and for the people we love and are lucky to have in our lives.
That's my thought on all this. Have a glorious day of your choosing, humans!