I've had a good, long run of really excellent mental health days--weeks, even. But this week has been more challenging. Today I'm not going to the gym, and I'm not sure whether that's a good decision or not yet.
Yesterday we met with our accountant so I missed TRX. Then I had a TON of work that was due and we stayed with our sweet Eliza Bean and her cousin while their parents went out. I had to take my laptop and work while babysitting. And, that, I think is why I've been feeling down lately.
One of my professional goals for 2020 is to double my working hours -- which sounds like a big deal, but last year I tracked my actual working hours and found that I was only working about 10 hours a week, so doubling up only means 20 hours a week. In theory, that seems entirely doable, with plenty of time left for everything I want and need to do besides working.
The good news is that I have managed to double my hours. I'm now working an average of about 4 hours a day. Even better, I have more work to do.
The bad news is, it turns out that's a little bit stressful. Currently, I'm struggling to figure out how to arrange my days so that I get the work done, can go to the gym, run, and maintain my household. Life also keeps throwing monkey wrenches at my schedule, too (as it does for everyone!). For instance, the trip to the CPA yesterday. The week before that, it was doctors appointments.
When I was only working a couple of hours a day, those monkey wrenches were pretty easy to deal with, but now that my schedule is fuller, they present more of a problem.
The result is that I miss workouts, or work until 9 or 10 pm (which, again, sounds bad, but remember, I'm only working about 4 hours a day!), and I feel kind of *pressed*.
The reality is that all of these are good problems to have. I set out to work more, so that I could make more money and dig us out of debt. I've got a good start on reaching those goals. I set out to build up to a more rigorous and more effective workout regimen, and I'm doing that.
Now I just need to figure out how to manage it all. This part is the day-to-day, here's what I need to be doing at this time, and this is when I need to handle that, kind of nitty-gritty stuff that I've never been great at. But I'm working on it.
Since I didn't go to the gym today, I'm going to try to catch up on some work, and some housework too (that's a whole separate post!), and think about my schedule and how I could smooth it out some.
In the midst of all this, unsurprisingly, my weight loss has completely stalled. I haven't seen 183 appear on my scale again, and in fact even had a slight gain last week. I'm not stressing about it though. I've been eating more carbs than planned and that always seems to stall things, and I've been missing a bunch of runs, and cardio seems to be a key as well. It'll be fine, once I get things worked out a little better.
I hope that your health and fitness efforts are garnering the results you want, or at least results that feel good.
Here's a photo of my sweet, sassy girl, who turned three on Tuesday!