Seasonal happenings and revelations.
Thursday, December 15, 2016
So I haven't blogged in forever so here it is. November stared the birthday extravaganza in my house. I kick it off Nov 4 then my lil lady Nov 15, my big boys Nov 27 and finally the baby Dec 13....whew, that's alotta birthday "fun" mixed in to the holidays and just before christmas. My husband works full time at a very physically demanding job and I babysit for a small amount each week. We managed to get it all done and the bills paid-ish and have some $$ left to actually buy christmas for the kids. Nothing like years past when I was working full time as a nurse but there will be some fun stuff for each of them. There are these moments when I wish we had more, could do more, could spend without thinking but honestly we are making it just as well as before it just takes some extra effort and creative thinking and the reminder that money doesn't buy peace or joy. It takes talking to my kids and letting them know that at the end of the day I love that I can be home with them available for every school event and creating a peaceful loving atmosphere for us all to thrive in. The love of money and material possessions in many ways helped fuel my addiction. it helped me work more hours and still maintain my home. I hid behind good make up and brand name apperences but on the inside I was ugly and unable to see past my own selfish desires. it has been a process to allow material possessions to take a back seat to everything else that holds real value. That's not to say I don't enjoy looking nice and maintaining what I do have it just means that I no longer HAVE to hide behind those things I'm really free to enjoy them. I'm comming up to my 2 yrs drug and alcohol free on Jan 25 and it is the most amazing feeling. Last year at this time I feel like I was still trying to figure out what my sober life looked like and starting on a food addiction. This year I'm down almost 80# and a totally different person inside and out. Stable and happy full of joy and blessed in ways I had no idea even existed. There's nothing like a healthy sober life and a great face of makeup for the right reasons. Be blessed and joyful today sparkers . thanks for being you.