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i feel like im at the end of myself

Wednesday, November 02, 2016

i have a very sorted nasty past. everyone has a story and sometimes its just not pretty. mine is full of drugs and infedelity and although ive been sober almost two years it never ceases to amaze me at how my past will rear up and try to beat me down all over again. im not perfect ( thank you Jesus) i make mistakes and i own the decisions i make good and bad. i broke today no i didnt use or cheat or lie but a part of myself i have worked very hard to control and change came to the surface and it wasent pretty. it was rather disgusting and shameful. i refuse to turn back to old ways of thinking regaurdless of how the people around me behave. i refuse to live in a way that sells myself short and in a state of constant apology. my God is bigger than any of this He is the Author of my story and just knowing that make me feel like finding the end of myself isnt so bad
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  • DETERMINEDJANET
    Praying for you to have the strength to turn this around. The evil one knows our weak spots and will work hard to break us down!
    1628 days ago
  • MARINGAL
    Just be sure your side of the street is clean and you have made amends when needed. I have 21 years of recovery, it is a day at a time deal...Keep on doing what you have been doing.
    1628 days ago
  • GGSCHNEIDER
    Amen
    1628 days ago
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