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Broken bones and pain meds

Thursday, September 29, 2016

If you have read any of my previous ramblings you know that I am in recovery. My last relapse was on pain medication that progressively got deeper. That being said one of my big kids broke his ankle yesterday. The dr prescribed him a very mild pain medication. I'm working a program I am active and sober. I have no desire for mind altering substances ....... Today. That doesn't mean that tomorrow might not be a whole different story. It doesn't mean that the monster won't raise his head and say that's a good idea take just one your son is fine with ibuprofen. It doesn't mean that I'm safe from the lies that my brain will try to tell me to justify My actions. I am so aware of my weaknesses and shortcomings . Not everyone around me can understand when I gave voice to it yesterday. " but it's your son you won't do that you're a good mom " "you've come so far you wouldn't wreck all your hard work" being an addict doesn't make me a bad mom and all my hard work is nothing compared to the addict part of my brain that is at times consuming and all powerful. I am in a beautiful place in my life and I have No intention of destroying this place of beauty. So for today I will Cont to be honest with those around me even if they don't understand I will give any pain meds to a trusted neighbor who Can administer them to my son without feeling like taking the whole bottle I will be proud of who I am ....the good the bad and the ugly. I will grow from this situation I will be stronger because I can acknowledge my weakness and adjust my course . I am an addict. I am a mother who loves her children enough to know there are somethings I cannot do for them and dealing with pain meds is one of them. And that's ok
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  • DANIRENEE2015
    Thanks for the support. The break isn't bad thank the Lord.
    1662 days ago
  • DETERMINEDJANET
    Such transparency! Thanks for trusting your Spark Friends with this blog.

    Very sorry to hear about the broken ankle (How bad was it?) and I will keep you in my prayers that YOU WILL REMAIN STRONG with the addictive substance in the house. emoticon
    1662 days ago
  • DANNATWEEDY
    This is my first time reading your blogs, but I have to say this is a great and powerful one. I myself have never had that addiction, but I have numerous family members that have or are going through that now. You are taking all the right steps. If you need to ever talk to anyone, I'm here for you. Even if you just need to vent, I'll be here for you. I grew up in a family of addicts to drugs and alcohol. I can be on your support team if you so choose. Keep taking it a day at a time and sometimes a minute at a time. You're doing great! emoticon
    1662 days ago
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