Whew! Getting on that scale again this morning was nerve-wrecking. I have been going through quite an emotional roller coaster and it has been tough on my eating. I've been over eating everything - fast food, cookies and sweets and cheez-its galore. One day I had 3100 cals, eating tons of cookies! Ugh. It was emotional eating, no doubt. Then my scale died, so I couldn't even weigh myself during the fiasco. (((Side note: I wonder if it did that on purpose... just to give me a break or something. Ha. Who knows? Do scales have some inner connection to their weigh person? lol...)))
So after the worst was over, I started putting myself on an action plan. It was "My Overeating Action Plan" (which I've blogged about before, in case you need one too). Still being very active, and exercising almost every day, I eventually pulled my eating down. Took about two weeks of conscience daily effort. I did a number of things and used a lot of different food calming triggers.
#1 TONS of sugarfree mint gum.
#2 Brushing my teeth (w/ mint toothpaste) after snacks and meals.
#3 CONTINUED FOOD TRACKING... (as painful as it can be to see, I had to see the damage I was doing).
#4 Lots of new activities... (I even went to a poetry reading two weeks ago!)
#5 RUN training... (I now run every T, Thu and Sunday).
#6 Staying in touch on Sparkpeople... (with SP friends and blogs and their progress).
#7 Lots of introspection, prayer and bible study... tons of it!
#8 Motivation research. You know, reading a lot of articles on "motivation killers and boosters" and how to get back on track. One article that really helped me was SparkPeople's Tame The Emotional Beast article. Helped for perspective.
All of it over the course of almost two weeks has kicked me back into gear. I'm about 80% now.
Anyway, I finally fessed up and got some new batteries for my scale to get my current weight. Because you have to see the damage you're doing. You have to face it, and look it in the eye. You can't hide from it... like I would do years ago, avoiding the scale for months just to find my weight had increased 10, 20 pounds.
The good news? I can't believe it! In all that "eat-that, eat-this, and definitely lots more of that" foolishness of the past two weeks, I have only gained 2 pounds. Thank you Lord!!! Last time this happened, I was back up 8 lbs in only 6 days. Whew! So I will definitely take a 2 pound setback. I refuse to feel guilt or remorse. I'm just making a plan to continue succeeding and getting back up again from my fall. I am my own best friend and I have to be gentle on myself. YOU are your own best friend and YOU have to be gentle on yourself, truly.
The only real downer to all this I don't like is I have to dock my SP tracker two pounds. Ugh, 23 lbs lost now instead of 25. I hate that! :P But, I'll live seeking that regressed ticker number.
Right now I'm concentrating on getting my portion CONTROL back. "The little hidden key behind it all." Then I'll be 100%. So my August was a bust, but hopefully I'll double-time it in September. Already planning ahead to! And "planning" is half the battle right? (G.I....Jane?) lol. Can't believe it's September already.
P.S. I'm doing another Critical Mass bike ride tonight. 12 miles. Wish me luck! Pictures to come!
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