APRILBLESS

SparkPoints
 

Damage Control. Look It In The Eye.

Friday, August 27, 2010

Whew! Getting on that scale again this morning was nerve-wrecking. I have been going through quite an emotional roller coaster and it has been tough on my eating. I've been over eating everything - fast food, cookies and sweets and cheez-its galore. One day I had 3100 cals, eating tons of cookies! Ugh. It was emotional eating, no doubt. Then my scale died, so I couldn't even weigh myself during the fiasco. (((Side note: I wonder if it did that on purpose... just to give me a break or something. Ha. Who knows? Do scales have some inner connection to their weigh person? lol...)))
emoticon emoticon emoticon
So after the worst was over, I started putting myself on an action plan. It was "My Overeating Action Plan" (which I've blogged about before, in case you need one too). Still being very active, and exercising almost every day, I eventually pulled my eating down. Took about two weeks of conscience daily effort. I did a number of things and used a lot of different food calming triggers.
emoticon
#1 TONS of sugarfree mint gum.
#2 Brushing my teeth (w/ mint toothpaste) after snacks and meals.
#3 CONTINUED FOOD TRACKING... (as painful as it can be to see, I had to see the damage I was doing).
#4 Lots of new activities... (I even went to a poetry reading two weeks ago!)
#5 RUN training... (I now run every T, Thu and Sunday).
#6 Staying in touch on Sparkpeople... (with SP friends and blogs and their progress).
#7 Lots of introspection, prayer and bible study... tons of it!
#8 Motivation research. You know, reading a lot of articles on "motivation killers and boosters" and how to get back on track. One article that really helped me was SparkPeople's Tame The Emotional Beast article. Helped for perspective.
www.sparkpeople.com/reso
urce/wellness_articles.asp
?id=693

emoticon
All of it over the course of almost two weeks has kicked me back into gear. I'm about 80% now.

Anyway, I finally fessed up and got some new batteries for my scale to get my current weight. Because you have to see the damage you're doing. You have to face it, and look it in the eye. You can't hide from it... like I would do years ago, avoiding the scale for months just to find my weight had increased 10, 20 pounds.
emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
The good news? I can't believe it! In all that "eat-that, eat-this, and definitely lots more of that" foolishness of the past two weeks, I have only gained 2 pounds. Thank you Lord!!! Last time this happened, I was back up 8 lbs in only 6 days. Whew! So I will definitely take a 2 pound setback. I refuse to feel guilt or remorse. I'm just making a plan to continue succeeding and getting back up again from my fall. I am my own best friend and I have to be gentle on myself. YOU are your own best friend and YOU have to be gentle on yourself, truly.

The only real downer to all this I don't like is I have to dock my SP tracker two pounds. Ugh, 23 lbs lost now instead of 25. I hate that! :P But, I'll live seeking that regressed ticker number.

Anyway...

Right now I'm concentrating on getting my portion CONTROL back. "The little hidden key behind it all." Then I'll be 100%. So my August was a bust, but hopefully I'll double-time it in September. Already planning ahead to! And "planning" is half the battle right? (G.I....Jane?) lol. Can't believe it's September already.
emoticon
P.S. I'm doing another Critical Mass bike ride tonight. 12 miles. Wish me luck! Pictures to come!

Bless. emoticon
---
emoticon...for reading. Leave me a note... I love that! emoticon

"If at first you don't succeed... try, try again."

With man, this is possible. With GOD, ALL things are possible.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
  • no profile photo CD5483846
    love the positive attitude :D
    3678 days ago
  • SKINNYMISSKASEY
    Eating food like that is very strange. I've gone and eat I KNOW over 3000 calories, like it's my cheat day and I'll eat out twice, doughnuts, ice cream galore...and still lose weight with my exercise. Then when I do RIGHT sometimes, I won't lose anything. It's confusing and strange.
    3678 days ago
  • CITYZOZO
    you have a great attitude..and know just what to do.... get back at it..23 lbs down is fantastic...way to go, zo
    3681 days ago
  • APRILBLESS
    I'm always trying. Thanks my dear for the sweet comment...
    emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3681 days ago
  • FRUITYCHERRY
    You have a great attitude! Good for you for figuring out a way to get back on track!
    3681 days ago
  • APRILBLESS
    Thanks Sandi, for the kind words. I'll post those pics soon too!
    3682 days ago
  • DENI_ZEN
    Aprile, you're a quick study! Having the occasional setback like this happens to all of us; there'd be no SparkPeople if that weren't so. Even in the midst of this rough patch, you were still doing a great deal right: You tracked those 3100 cals., for instance! Amidst it all, you stayed active *and* you formulated a very solid, bulletproof recovery plan! On top of all that, you only gained 2 measly pounds in contrast to the 8 you'd gained before.

    Can you hear the thunderous applause from here? I'm whistling, too :)

    Can't wait to find out how the Critical Mass ride goes...AND the pictures! You're encouraging so many of us out here in SparkLand!!! Spark on!! - Sandi emoticon
    3683 days ago
  • APRILBLESS
    All you ladies are so great. What would I do without ya.

    It was so a "nip it in the bud" challenge, but I think I finally got a hold of it. It's just nice to see the light at the end of the tunnel finally you know?!? It's hard sometimes, but we can always conquer it. Thanks everyone!
    emoticon
    3684 days ago
  • BABY_GIRL69
    I too have been making a conscious effort not to buy donut holes (me & hubby love em) & keebler fudge stripe cookies. I've been doing pretty well but I'm still a mess if someone buys me a box of red vines so I have been buying one or two boxes & not my normal 3-5boxes so I don't run out. lol I have been getting more veggies & drinking more milk & eating more soup. So this helps but I also started bringing not only my 2nd breakfast but a cup of veggies & a slice of honey wheat bread & a coupla slices of turkey to curb my evening appetite. Doing much better & once I get home, I can just do my workout or relax. Glad that the scale is working & that's a huge help to hinder us from snacking. lol

    God bless & make sure you get plenty of pics on bike ride!

    Dee
    3684 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6096849
    You'll knock that 2 lbs out so quick you won't even remember that they were there. Seriously, it's not that bad and I'm loving your positive attitude about everything. Yes it was a minor set back but yes you're also taking this in stride. Keep on keeping on sis. You have half the battle won already!
    3685 days ago
  • MSILVER94
    Yes ma'am you did the right thing! Nipping it in the bud! And I'm glad wasn't but 2lbs, that really isn't bad at all! Good luck on your bike ride! Hope you enjoy it!
    3685 days ago
  • DEBBIE_C
    emoticon Do that thang!!! Thank you for keeping it real. Love the attitude and know that success is yours...

    ~Debbie emoticon
    3685 days ago
  • ABSOLUTZER0
    You know I am always feeling your posts. They are so real and genuine. You are not doing as bad as you think you are. You are staying active and tracking. With this "action" plan you have set up all you have to do is take ACTION! One day at a time and before you know it you will be adjusting your SP tracker in the opposite direction. August is over and we are going to ROCK September!
    3685 days ago
  • PURPOSEPOWER95
    girl I feel u LOL I stepped on the scale and had to scream!!!!!!!!!!!! But I still have kids at home and those 3 boys can eat. So I need to grocery shop badly. Best wishes on your bike marathon. I have my own marathon trying to keep the emotions in check. Still riding and moving. Praise God for the little things in life. Keep going gurl!! emoticon
    3685 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7721924
    Track baby track! :D Nothing can snap you back to reality faster!

    I agree, planning is at least half of the battle!
    3685 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment


    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.